The poetry of J.J. Campbell

every second i took a breath

i hear my father in my laugh, in my thoughts,
in the way i walk and the way i hold the
newspaper

it doesn’t annoy me, it makes me want to
take a knife and cut my own head off

i’d love to change but i can’t stand failure

it was never allowed in my life

i was never to learn from it as i was never
to be anything other than my best every
second i took a breath

i look at your beauty and know i am not
good enough

i yearn for you to love me one day

yet part of me knows i will be just another
disappointment for you

you’re young and still have forever in
your sights

the best part of me died on a bathroom
floor in my grandmother’s home

i could ask, beg and plead for you to help
this broken soul

but i also know you don’t have the time

and the older i get the more i realize
no one does

i suppose soon it will be a park bench
a brown paper bag, and the prayer for
a random bullet

 

 

 

the taste for death again

another glass of vodka

another drag from an
old cigarette

there’s a full moon out
tonight and you know
you have the taste for
death again

forever angry at the
world

you know you are
better off alone rather
than trapped with anyone
foolish enough to love
you

and one of these nights
it will all surely go wrong

and you’ll end up in some
shallow grave

but you learned a long time
ago that broken souls don’t
get to choose their fate

it’s the flip of a coin

or a random thought lost
in a cold wind

eventually, the lucky ones
get to have roses grow
out of them

i’m more likely to be
somewhere in a field
of weeds


J.J. Campbell (1976 – ?) is trapped in suburbia, hoping to one day plan his escape. He’s been widely published over the years, most recently at Lucidity Poetry Journal, The Daily Dope Fiend, Horror Sleaze Trash, Synchronized Chaos and Academy Of The Heart And Mind. His latest chapbook, the taste of blood on christmas morning, was published by Analog Submission Press. You can find him most days on his mildly entertaining blog, evil delights. (http://evildelights.blogspot.com)

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